RANDOMNESS!

School Holiday is here once again!!!

I'm gonna enjoy my life now before Hell starts again during my attachment...

I had a tough time during my 5 weeks attachment in Ai Tong.. during June..

Now... it's 12 weeks... "Awesome"....
Gonna start in Feb...

I lazy to post photos... anyway.. it's all in my facebook..
If you're reading this private blog.. I'm sure you are my friends in facebook already..
DUH~~~ LOL!!!

Nothing excited in my life.. I'm still the same old Jessica..
A teacher.... but with a crazy personal life..
And so.. all my friends often say they won't send their kids to my school...

Well.. All of you gonna miss out!!

Cos i'm the most passionate teacher in school~!
Certified by my supervisor leh!

WAHAHAHHAHAA!!

we all wear a mask during work..

I'm sure those of you work in hotel.... or airport... or anywhere....
meet other ppl.. sure smile... polite... then when u angry also curse them behind their back rite?!

For me.. the same... in school...

i always have fun with the kids.. so sometimes they get really excited till they are really noisy..
i feel happy when i'm standing outside the class, and i hear my students like pretending to clap their hands excitedly, "Miss Tan is here! Miss Tan is here!"

It gives me this motivation to continue making my lessons as interesting as ever.

But of course... there are times i'm super strict... fierce.. if u say so..
Cos.. generally.. i'm a happy person... ya.. other than i have some depression last time..
Long ago... Haha. no worries. totally moved on.. no more insomnia etc already..

as in.. Linda calls me siao-on..
Cos i'm very smilely and happy...
cos i move a lot.. very jumpy..
like damn enthusiastic...

So when i'm angry with my students. very quickly they will know.
All i need to do is, stand straight without moving..
and give them my favourite, "The-Death-Stare" + "The-Black-Face"..

All for more dramatic effect... i take the chair.. put right in front of the class...
sit down and stare into space...
or pretend to sleep.
LOL!

Ha.. okay.. once i talk about students etc... i can go on forever..
LOL!!

Well.. honestly.. so far... i really enjoy what i'm doing..
But.. that's because i just started the career.. plus.. the last time i worked in a student care..
18 students.. small air-con room..
i love my job. very simple.

Now.. 40 students.. humid non-aircon class room.
Lots of admin duties to do..

I don't know how long i can last..

Sometimes i hear my friends.. like want to change job... etc..
they are free to go...
options to choose from..

Me.. i feel like a caged bird..
I'm bonded...
No where to escape.

So.. all i can do now.. is to pray hard.. that i will love my job as a teacher..

And don't have to change job..

If i love my job... i do it well.. i still can climb the corporate ladder..
Higher status in school... like subject leader... HOD etc..
Higher pay...
Higher aspiration etc..

Oh well.. if only things will go the way i want.
Wish me luck and pray hard for me!

=D

Now.. I'm still a trainee-teacher... dreaming...

Well.. it's better to dream big.. than not dreaming at all..
No dreams, no visions, no motivation, no action.

Without a plan, you plan to fail.