Crazy thoughts

Have you ever feel what if your bf don't love you all of a sudden?

I have these crazy thoughts sometimes..

I think I'm crazy.

But my bf will always sms me or call me all of a sudden and make me feel everything's gonna be alright...


Sometimes i feel i don't really love him a lot.. yet sometimes i feel i cannot lose him..
It's a werid feeling.
I think it's evil school making me go crazy.

Anyway, i should be firm with my love for my bf.

Because, if everything goes well... we should be married by
10-11-12.

Haha. but nothing is confirmed yet.
So.. ya... just a date we might be thinking of..

It's like 2 years from now... cos it's end of next year..
Yet.. it's next year!
I wonder if we'll be ready.