Resolution.

I'm sorry. but i had to talk about my skin again.
because this is what i see everyday. skin is the largest organ on our bodies.
so it's constantly on my mind cos i look at myself everyday in the mirror.

I was looking through my old posts.
cos i wanna see it took me about how long for my pimples to subside with my medicine..

facial doesn't seem to work.. but i felt it worsen it...
the scars take longer to fade... cos of the painful extraction.

I have this feeling that it didn't take as long when i took my medicine the last time.

i don't know.. i hope i'm wrong..
my blog didn't say much.
I'm on my third week of medication...

i hope these pimples will go away and never come back FOREVER.
please please please..........
:((((((((((((((((
do you think that will ever happen??!!!
:(((((((((((((((

I'm already 25......
Okay. I admit. mid-twenties!!!!!!!!!
omg. i'm gonna be late-twenties sooooooon.
gosh. this is scary.
i don't wanna have pimples at that age tooooooo

only those that have pimples understand what i'm going through..
only with my medicine.. i could feel my skin not so oily at the end of the day, no more feeling 10349021 bumps as i wash my face, best of all.. having the shower head facing my face....... that feeling feels soooooo good.

for now, i have to cover the shower-head as i shower...
if not the water that come out of the tiny holes feels like water jet spraying into any pimples opening. painful like shit okay.

yes. sounds disgusting rite?
that's my disgusting skin.

i hate it.
why can't i have good skin
WHY WHY WHY?!

Feels so upset each time i think of it or look in the mirror.
sucks.
feels like i hate myself because of stupid skin.
sounds superficial right?
that thought also make myself feel worse.

in any case. bad skin = bad confidence = bad mood

okay. end of story.
I HOPE THE PIMPLES WILL GO AWAY.
PLEASE........ :((((((((((((((((

And i found this. My resolution last year!

1. Spend time with family and friends. - i think with friends more.. family not so, my family members all working all day and night for money... sigh. no time even if i want.

i enjoy going out with friends.. but sometimes i feel a bit out-cast cos i'm not single. not that i don't want to go out with them, but they said single girls clique better? :(

2. Be an even better gf. - i think i did... and ZR has been even more doting to me... instead of being angry i will whine and throw tantrum like a kid.. lol. at least that work better than an angry gf who storm off.. now he give in more to me if i tell him every single thing that irritates me. hahaha. it worked. he calls me "Manja Princess" now.

3. Work harder in my school work - nah... i decided not to care about school already. less stress and much happier now.

4. Be positive - errrrrrrrrr. the same. sometimes cheerful, sometimes upset and frustrated with the housing and marriage issue.

5. Be an Artist. - i think so! i went to join lots of scrapbooking class @ papermarket and burnt a hole in my pocket during my june holidays.
this december holiday i didn't go to the shop at all. totally no money.

6. Read the bible more often - i think more, cos i join my Saturday cell group.
bond much better with them since this year :)

7. Stop buying things i don't need. - needless to say, totally no money now.
i feel i really stopped replenishing my wardrobe for a long time. ever since i came back from my Taiwan trip in May...
so.. that's 7 months of no shopping. broke all record.


I'll think about writing a resolution if i have any for the coming New Year.

Oh well...

I just hope to settle my housing and marriage issue.
That's the best thing i can hope for in 2012!