Sigh

Don't know izzit stress or cos of all the nonsense medicine i'm taking..
I'm having adnormal bleeding again..

Seen two gynaes... they can't find anything wrong with my ovaries..
just mentioned that maybe contraceptive pills may cos some losing of lining; hence, the bleeding.
*sigh*

Now i'm doing an assingment on Gifted Education Programme (GEP)..
ZR is helping me with the assignment cos i don't know how to do.
I got scolding from my lecturer just because i asked her how to find the article..

Then ZR and i were talking as if our kids can get into GEP. LOL.
He said he doesn't want his kids to go GEP cos it's the top 1% of each level.
Later our child might be last in the GEP class.
He said he'll want his kids to win all the 2% and onwards students.

I said if our child is gifted, we should cater for their needs, which is what the whole research journal is about.
if you don't meet their needs, they will lose interests in their studies and totally lose everything. worse.

Haha... it's actually quite fun talking about the future.... it's like entertainment for us.
just like how we talked about our house wayyyyyyyy-before we got it..
and when we get it, it's easier cos we already decided what we want to have in our house and convey them to our designers.

but!!!!!! houses are objects that's fixed.
Kids..... i don't know man.. i keep thinking about all the medicine i eat..
plus... not as if i have very good genes...

I really hope my kids take after ZR..
i'm soooooooo average... or below average...
not as if i'm very pretty..
i don't like my nose.. hope it takes after zr..
I HATE MY SKIN!! SHIT! I had to take all these medicines! Pls take after ZR..
I'm in EM2 in primary sch.. :(
that's not all, second-last in class in EM2. goodness.
now i'm in second-lower.... i hope i don't drop to third-class before i graduate...
sigh.....
ZR without tuition went EM1.. then special stream...
if our kids don't follow the same way.. izzit my fault?

sigh... i hope i can stop the medicine.... but i know i'm gonna look horrible on my wedding day if i stop now....

HAI. why like this....

stop bleeding and frightening me!!!
:(
okay. back to work.