we might be changing date again

it's almost 3am and i can't sleep...

i can't stop thinking...

the couple who are sharing the church venue decided to shift their wedding to morning...

i realised... why.

her 350 guests will take up all the car park space...

no rush for her guests to leave..

Fresh flowers deco.
nobody will touch her flower deco. which she kept reminding me when she wanted the afternoon slot...

clean arrangements of buffet settings

no noise level. etc etc

there are much more to consider and i won't know....

i feel so stressed to hold on the same day as her..

i want the day to be a happy day not only for myself but for my guests....

now.. i don't feel happy..

i hate changing the dates every now and then..

it makes me feel so insecure...

if only i fixed the date of November or december long ago...

now so many dates are taken up by others....

it's too late..

i'm so stressed.

i hate it.

sometimes i really feel like calling off the wedding...

SERIOUSLY.

i am so stressed and upset now....

i can't sleep.