sex = baby = no sex

well.. as my title said it..

had sex to have baby, once have baby = no sex for me.

i belong to the unfortunate group of women who someone cannot have sex during pregnancy...

will cause bleeding. not that husband was rough or what..

i guess my womb is just sensitive..

well, just like when a woman is aroused, you can feel pulses like some contracting muscles down below..
err.. if u didn't realise or don't know... it's time u learn to enjoy your body. haha..

so.. i guess those contracting muscles caused those bleeding..
no sex = no bleeding
tried once = bleeding

so now, traumatised to even try...

no sex till full term. sigh.. not that i super enjoy having sex or what..
or not that i'm horny or what.. maybe the pregnancy also made me lose interest in it..

but.. that's the only thing that you can do only with your hubby and no one else..
it's the most intimate thing u can do with him.. not to think dirty, but to think about all love.
don't know how to explain this.

so.... now just see if zr can last till full term and not cheat on me.. haha..
so far.. i hope and just have faith in him...
that he'll love me and baby enough not to take the wrong step, cause i warn him i will sure divorce him and make sure he won't get to see his son again.

My dear baby.... mummy & daddy is really sacrificing all our pleasure, enjoyment, love and intimacy because of you... you better be a good boy... happy, healthy and love God, make it all worth while to have you...

and please grow up successful, and filial, earn a lot of money and give us a lot too..
thank you very much.

loving you much.