Vainity.

I asked my friend, "Is my hair very messy?"

He answered, "If not why i call you, siao char bo just now?"

Then he started fiddling with the loops of hair on the top.

So sad.

I didn't even say anything to him and he knew where are all the irritating parts.


Then I was writing notes during lesson..
SUDDENLY~ I couldn't concentrate...

GUESS WHY?!?!??!!
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Look @ the shadow~~
Why are there so may loops on the top of my scalp??!!!

Went back hall and took some photos.

Look at my damaged hair.. I'm so sad.. why why why???

Tried to cut some out...
But i realised i might as well cut bald since every single strand of hair is like that...

Like what shufie said, "Pubic hair"!

I can lay them in a circle, and it will look like a roller-coaster ride with loops.
Damn gross, can u imagine, i have an entire head of pubic hair.
That's why i hate pubic hair.
LOL.

And so...
i need to do a lot of stuff with how i look.
Need make up, need braces, need good facial products. Avoid the sun, be fairer.. need contact lenses need to trim eyebrows... .... etc etc etc.

If not...............................

You want to see me in the past,
when i don't give a damn to how i look?

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I'm actually feeling quite
embarrassed showing this.
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You sure you want to see?
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Promise to be my friend even after seeing?
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None other than Me.

Yeah.
Linda love to look @ my old photos
and laugh damn loud. Damn bad.

My favourite teacher..
Probably thinking, "Why this girl so Ugly & Crazy??"
LOL~ Nah.. He's very nice.
=)

I think i look different from the past.

Ugly short hair with specs. Damn.
I HATE SHORT HAIR~~~



Rach knows i love this pic the most out of all my secondary school pics.
Because i have Rach hugging me!



I have no idea what's going on.. Can't remember.
LOL. Damn crazy.

What the hell am I doing with the broom?!?!?!?!?!?!
Damn.

I really can't believe i walk around looking like a piece of shit in the past.
How do I survive?

I'm so glad, i still have Rach, Jem, Hy and all other friends in the past even though i am so super duper UGLY~~~~~~~~~~


I wrote in my Journal for one of my poly elective:

In the streets -

“She’s so pretty! Look at her figure! Too bad, I don’t have those boobs to compliment the kind of blouse she’s wearing.”

“Hey, look over there! Her boyfriend is so handsome! I hope to find a gorgeous boyfriend too! Most good-looking guys seemed to be taken!”

Well, often heard of those comments? It’s often a topic, especially for people of my age. Ever seen an ugly air stewardess or models? I doubt so. In a typical movie, usually the looks of the lead actress is attention grabbing. The scene became slow motion, as she toss her long hair behind her shoulder and all the blokes will open both their eyes and mouths wide in a daze.

And if the woman is ugly, it would become a comedy.

No longer a romance movie.

WHY?! Appearance is really essential in this society.

If two person with the exact character, capabilities and experiences enter an interview room, the person who look more attractive will be hired, as he/she is more pleasing to the eyes. Not only that, he/she will actually be more confident in presenting herself/himself.

Most would actually stereotype that secretaries are pretty and sexy. Even cartoons drew most secretaries to be really sexy, if not a nerd. Usually those outcast in school, are not appealing, if they are, everyone wants to be their friends!

Good character is very important, but if you are good looking, it’s a bonus. It creates the first impression, the first time they laid eyes on you.

Enough said.