Stuck in Limbo

My dearest who made my life beautiful and happy again.

I've been shopping non-stop for my Taiwan trip.

Really starting to get very excited about it.

Actually ZR too. Sometimes he keep telling me he want to take this pose... or that pose..
Then he will pose for me!! HAHAHA!
How cute is that?! =P

Yet, in reality, we're kind of stuck in limbo.

Our minds felt as if we really are getting married soon.

Cos we're going for our Bridal shoot in less than 2 weeks!

Plus, whenever we walked pass any jewelry shop, we'll naturally stop and take a look...
see if we like the designs...

YET! In actual fact, he had to save money for his masters, so we cannot afford it.
anyway, we are also not getting married any time soon, so there's no point getting it.


There's once he said, "I got this feeling i can never have a house of my own."

another time he asked, "Dear, do you think we will ever own a house?"

I replied, "Yes dear. We will. Just need some time.."

But i really don't know how long it's gonna take..

One moment we felt as if we are going to get married next year, which was planned initially.
Next moment, we realised we don't even know when we will be doing so because of all the financial difficulties we're facing.

This feeling really sucks big time.

We just really want to be together officially, so we can travel around to other countries with no other random thoughts that we are not married.
what will we do in the hotel room etc etc?
Ppl often gave such comments.

I know it sounds old-fashioned.
But as a Christian, we really hope to live our lives right.

Not only that, we just want to be together TOGETHER.

I don't know. That feeling of settling down and bringing our relationship to the next level.

I asked him why he want to get married?

Then he said he feel like settling down.

Actually he said in the past he wanted to get married before he's 30, maybe have a kid too by then.

Now, he's 29 and we're not even near it.

Sometimes i can sense his disappointment.

That he's still kinda like a fresh grad who started only working a year plus ago..

We have no car, no house, no cash, no savings.

We have nothing.

He asked me why i love him since he has nothing to offer.

I said, because i think he is a good man.

He told me to be patient with him, when he earns enough money, he will make it up to me.

I hope it's true. ha... i know action speaks louder than words.

at least for now, he really does his best to make sure i am happy and well taken care of.
He buys me whatever he can afford for the month.

so we'll see in future too.


oh well... we really just have to be very patient.

VERY.

it's okay. if we're really meant to be together.
Time will not be an issue.

I just hope i can have a kid before i'm 30...
5 years to go.... will i reach that goal?
:(
Will we be ready?

Will God grant me healthy children?

With all the nonsense that i'm taking, i really need to be prayerful about it.

I hope we'll stay as happy as now for the rest of our lives.
I really hope so.
I will work hard to keep it this way.
I hope he will too.

A song to lighten up the mood. :):)