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Random updates: Showed ZR my quick journal painting (previous post)...
ZR laughed.. he said i should just stick to photography and videos.
LOL. I also agree. Why my drawing and painting so lousy?? Shit man.. how to teach my students.

Well.. our church wedding will most likely be on 29-12-2012.
We have already logged in this date in our church office.
And registered for marriage preparatory course as well.

For wedding banquet... after much discussion,
we decided to postpone to 2013.
i will only graduate in June next year.
There's too much to plan for budgeting in half a year.

Everything is $$$.
Money makes the world go round. Argh.

If we want better hotels, better videographer, photographers etc.
All need $$$.

I watched wedding highlights of different companies..
I only like established companies or artistic kind of video.
Not too ordinary...
Better quality = higher $$$

Maybe both zr and i really have higher expectations.
Our church elders keep saying it's expectations that give us all the headaches and we should marry each other because of our commitments to each other etc.
Like my elders married each other with a few hundred dollars rings...
The one we wanted is $1200 and above.
One married with no photographer etc. Think he just asked his friend to take for him.

But... i don't want to marry for the sake of getting married.
I hope to have a good marriage.

At first, i really don't feel like splitting it into 2 years...
Yet, I don't wanna compromise standards for the sake of feeling troublesome and more cost.

There are more cost to split the church wedding and banquet into 2 separate year.
Cost of make-up artists, photographer + videograhper, transportation, gowns, bouquet, decos etc etc. All of them gotta be hired again = $$$

Troublesome too... as in to hold a wedding twice in different year..
Need to re-engage them, need to plan another date.. find place, etc etc.
All these plannings are very stressful.

Although all these are "wa$ted co$t", at least, with more time and more $avings, we can widen our choices.

For now, ZR is busy working and studying.. and of course paying.
So I'm in-charge of planning. He's in charge of deciding.
The pay-master makes up the mind rite? Ha...

It seems possible for us to hold our banquet together with our church wedding too.

But to be safe.. it's better not.
Because of the down-payment of our house and his school fees.
This is something that we missed out initially so ZR told me go ahead with the hotel search.

Plus, i wanted better videographers, i'm quite particular with it..
just like my pre-wedding album.. They kept editing it since May till Dec...
and.... it is not even completed!!!

Hahaha.. too bad.. the longer they take to reply me.. the more tiny details i see...
i will ask them to change..

so.. in conclusion... the best is, we hold our banquet celebration till... i don't know..
maybe won't even have.
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Next topic. Is.... MY STUPID SKIN!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!! This topic is on and off for the past......... donkey years!!!!!!!

I'm back on isotretinoin again.
SUCKSS.

Again.. still worrying about my future baby.
Even ZR called me after his work when he saw one of my friend posted about side effects of harming the baby .. he's very worried.. keep asking if it's safe and will it harm our child..
seriously.. i don't know..
my doctor who sell me the pills say wont'.
my gynae.. say it's poison...

ZR told me to sell off my medicine or throw away.
I paid few hundred dollars for it! Finish this 2 months first.
Anyway, family planning will be 2 years later. After our wedding and housing issue settles.

i started with antibiotics.. doesn't work..
then contraceptive to control hormones.. also doesn't work..
creams also dry my skin.
seems like nothing works except this isotretinoin medicine..

then realised the only method i didn't try is facial.. so i'm trying it for now...
just signed up with new york skin solutions.
i really hope it works...

I really can't wait to graduate now...

I really love being a student..

But i need the money.
Seriously....

I really wanna help ZR...
He really spent a lot a lot on me and our marriage.
I don't wanna rely on him anymore....

When i get my pay...
I'm gonna sing "I've got the power!"
LOL.
Can't wait.
OMG.... 6 more months...