Sex and baby

This post is not for the underage.

Actually, even if over-age also won't understand what i mean since i like to rant and talk nonsense. haha.

again, as usual i don't really check my grammar and even if i do, my English is not that good, so I'll also have mistakes.
too lazy to read what i've written. so bear with it.

OK! i shall start this topic.

Long ago, I was reading magazines and couples discussed about frequency of sex... some said everyday (WOW!), some a couple of times a week, some once a week, some once a month (SAY "WHAT..."!)

Then, the younger me, with no commitment of home, less housework and stress, more time, was thinking, wah, how the couple survive once a week, are they sad? i was genuinely curious.

Fast forward, today, the older me, sometimes became the 'once a week' category.

seriously. sex is overrated.

and the week we had lots of sex is because we wanted to try for a baby.
yupppppppppppp... u got that right. we are trying! yoohoo or boohoo...
i still have many doubts about having a child.. but... i guess.. no harming trying right?
i don't know...

ok. sex is over. now come baby (not).

i thought will be nice spending 1-2 years of "honeymoon" period, but within few months, things started to get quiet and lonely at home... i guess that's why people have pets.... and the amount of money spent on having pets, i guess i rather make babies.

as some of u know, i have a pet phrase "never try never know"...
so i decided to try and buy the Ovulation kit... hahaha.. gadgety.. i'm curious how it works. so i tried.

sometimes people who have a child happily said, "we didn't plan for the child!"

sorry for saying this, but that's my opinion, please ignore if u find this offensive, which i never reply to others, in case i get punched in the face.

in my heart i'll say, "you can't plan for a baby, you can only plan to prevent pregnancy...i mean, when you didn't use condoms or any contraceptive, isn't it you plan to have a child?"
okay, unless the contraceptive didn't work.. it's really not your fault then...

oh well...
so back to planning... as if plan will have. also not.

so here i am charting my menses dates...
and my "probably fertile date"...
pee on the stick on 3 different days... nah.. one line...
am i not ovulating? weird.

then come the 2 weeks wait to my menses date..
decided to pee on the pregnancy kit.... yes. i cannot wait to know the answer...
so if i'm pregnant I'll be more careful, if i'm not I can go do and eat all sorts of things.

it was 4am in the morning...
results... came back NEGATIVE..

Felt like seeing results on your test that you worked so hard for and you FAILED.

I'm glad I chose to pee at 4am... so after seeing the results, disappointed me...
went back to sleep!
Hahahha...

woke up feeling fine again... i mean Hey.. it's only my first month trying... no big deal.

so went back to my date of menses... as if i'm doing statistics.

counted the weeks... i realised i'm not the default 28-day cycle woman.
I'm have the 35 or 40-day cycle..

so the week that i've been trying is the wrong week... hahaha. epic fail.
 well... then again, not as if i try on fertile week also mean i will be pregnant..

told my mum this and she said i siao.. not natural... haha..

whatever.. anyway i left 2 ovulation kit..
gonna test on day 18 and 23 to see which day is my ovulation day.
 hahaha.. i just want to be right.

but after this month, i won't buy those ovulation kit again. i just wanted to play since adults don't have much toy other than some kinky ones. haha.

well... bye guys, will update again next time.

hopefully with some good news.