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A continuation from last week..

I decided to take another pregnancy test again because my menses isn't here yet.

Ya.. I think I'm already 2 weeks late, but it shows as NEGATIVE.
*PUI*

I like to take the test on Saturday morning so if i know i'm not pregnant I can enjoy my weekends..
Drinking tea, coffee, cleaning the house thorougly etc.

and if i'm really pregnant then I'll just blame it on the pregnancy kit.

my period is usally on time, looking at the charts i did for the last few months..
it falls on Sunday morning...
just as i started to try, my body decides to start late.
arghh...

mental tortures.
my sis said cos i'm too consious that's why my body not functioning properly.

i'm like talking to myself "oie... if i'm not pregnant, can menses come quickly?"
haha. talk about wanting menses to come.
siao.

so at least i know i can try again...

but my body decides to play a prank on me.

i know ppl will tell me let nature take its course... i'm telling myself that too...
but it's not easy.
i know having a child can take up to 2 years...
so i will be taking my own time..

i shall take the test again next week and / or wait for menses to come, or see a doctor next week.

if i'm really pregnant then "sorry baby for drinking all that coffee and tea!! blame it on the kit!"
i'm really evil... but i really don't want all that weekends to go to waste if there's nothing.
but of course i don't drink alcohol... a little treat with caffine... hope it's not too harmful
*cross my fingers*

if i'm not pregnant then will try again... :P
suddenly thought about my bedroom joke..

one night i decided to "seduce" my husband..
and he said, "i know what you want... you want my sperm."

HAHAHA... so turn-off right.

we had a good laugh though.


and i also thought about something a few people said...

maybe they are encouraging... or they felt it's a fact.. but i think it's a modern era fact.
not biology fact.

some might say "you are still young.. can try later.."

but seriously, at the age of 27.. biologically i'm not young to start trying.
i don't study biology.. but i know what i've read.
it's the country i live in that makes people feel that being older and more stable then can try... talk about government wanting more kids when its people can't afford or not mentally-prepared to do so..

yet, i don't want to wait till i'm 29, and try then realise i have no luck.
By the time i'm 30 and beyond, chances get slimmer and slimmer.
then who to blame? myself, or the person who told me this?

okay i shall stop talking to myself here.

will update again:)