Baby baby

Sometimes I still experience some bleeding..

Somewhat worried, or paranoid... till I feel I'm not as optimistic, like some pregnant mums who plan so far ahead or think so many good things...

Instead, I'm reading up on miscarriages stories... sigh, i'm so full of shit.
Like how the cord strangled the baby etc. or just sudden death.

Hmm.. but I'm not the only mum, cos whenever i bleed or have cramps etc, i go online, and there are many other mothers going through the same thoughts and worries...

I can't see my baby now, don't know how is he/she doing inside...
Don't know if baby is growing well inside or not..

Hope time flies and my baby will be in my arms, because I know I will take care of my child.
Yet at the same time, I want to keep my baby inside as long as possible to full term - 40 weeks..

Just hope everything will turn out good.

next month, I'll get to know if my baby is a boy or a girl.

before i am pregnant, i really wanted a girl... now that my baby is here, all i hope is for he or she to be healthy and happy...

For now, I'm trying to keep myself more positive by saving cute and happy baby pics on my phone to remind and encourage myself that my baby will be happy like them when he/she is out.

Time is ticking. I'm waiting.