27 - 01- 2010

I don't know why.. But i just feel i couldn't tell everybody about what happened recently..

Izzit my fears?

I see Shu Fen proudly typed "I miss / love my bf" or changed her status, where everybody can see.. I feel so happy for her..

But i feel i don't dare to...

So at most, i only post comments on his wall.

Actually, i also think he's not proud to show it...

WILL HE CHEAT ON ME TOO??!!!

This relationship is something so new. So fragile.

But Zhi Rong as a person has been very nice and sweet to me so far.
Hmmm.. I shall share a little how i accepted him.

The bouquet of flowers may not be very extravagant etc.. it's simple..
but still, the biggest bouquet i received so far in my life.
not as if i'm super celebrity received many flowers etc..
so i'm contented.

What also touched my heart was the card he made himself, and a note that comes along with it.
No guys ever did something hand made for me. And i think that's really sweet of him.

We had Japanese cuisine, Waraku, his favourite.


He brought me to the flyer, because i said I've never went there before.

With God's grace, the flyer staff gave us a private cabin.

Just the two of us.

Then... he popped the question.
Which was quite funny, he said, "Jessica Tan... will you be my gf?"

.... dots. call me with my surname...

And i joked, "No........"

Then he said, "Arh??? Then i go home already...."

I laughed and said, "Hahahaha! ok.. yes then......"

And yup. So we became official on 27-01-2010..

I know it may seemed very fast... I also didn't expect us to be together so quickly.

We only got to know each other on 20-12-2009.
That's how we got to know each other, through paintball event.
He's standing behind me in this photo. He said he likes me since then, and he wondered why I seemed to ignore him that day. Of cos la.. i don't even know him well, moreover he's not in my team... so when i added him in facebook, he said he was very happy.

Oh well.. it's been only a month ago.

I also didn't post up our photos up in facebook because i don't want it to seem like a one-sided affair.

He also didn't post anything up.. or change our status etc.

So i don't want to do the same. I've learnt my lesson the hard way.

Sometimes i feel a bit unfair for him, i'm still having my guards up.
Because i don't really know him that well.. and i can't trust easily now.

But... i'm happy with him because so far, he really has been very nice to me.

Everybody said, do not compare ur bf with ur ex.
But i can't help it. at least i compared in a good way.
i feel he dotes on me much more than daniel did in the past (comparing our first few months), Daniel also lost to him.

But i didn't tell him zr this, in case he gets too proud of it. haha.

alright.. i shall let the photos do the talking.

I prayed and I'm still praying to be happy.

I hope people around me, can be happy for me too.



=)=)