No menses?

Alrighty, let's talk about the term "Unexpected Pregnancy".

As mentioned from my previous post, I feel people who said "Unexpected pregnancy" when they didn't use any contraceptive really contradicting...

Well, I happened to be the case and I think God is trying to tell me to keep quiet. Haa...

But that's not gonna make me less doubtful about this term unless the person has similar experiences as me. BLEAH =P

Well, as you know... what makes not being pregnant more frustrating is not having your menses.

Because no menses = no ovulation... or Science state so.


My menses didn't come since the month we started trying...
i guess the stress of trying shut down my body system.

so I took a pregnancy test every week after that with all negative results...
Cos no menses = could be pregnant right?
Plus I read so many webs saying some pregnant women have very low HCG (a chemical) produced in pregnant woman. So i thought I could be one of them...

2 months passed... I kind of gave up testing...
or maybe not, cos I'm going for my overseas Europe honeymoon, i'm not that crazy to bring pregnancy kit there....
We had fun, We relaxed, no baby rush, can't be bothered,
i slide down the self created ice-slides and do all sorts of madness..

So came back, I thought being relaxed and all my menses will arrive.
Nope. It didn't... and i already booked an appt with the gynae which is on 28 June...
I counted by then my menses should be 3 months late, so i SHOULD see a gynae in case I have any problem.

She did an ultrascan for me... i plucked up my courage and asked, "could I be pregnant?"
Her answer, "No.. if not you'll be tested positive."
Felt a tad disappointed but I accepted it, well hey, we just started only right?

So she gave me Norethisterone.... it should flush out everything.. she said about 3-4 days.
My sister took it too as she went Europe too. Hers came within 3 days.
Till now, I still wished I had more faith with myself and my senses than I trusted "Science" or my gynae.

I somehow felt my honeymoon month was different...
I usually have sore nipples before menses...
Last 2 months don't have... then when i was overseas, i had...
Felt i could be pregant after that.. but just a thought and i felt maybe i'm paranoid. better listen to doctor and stop imagining..

After I completed my medication for 5 days, I waited for another 5 days, my menses still didn't come.
I called up, and asked... Nurse said wait 7 days...

So I waited another 2 days..
Okay..... 7 days already! Why no menses?

Decided to test.

OMG....!! OH SHIT!!!!!
The two lines appeared so quickly, what me having low HCG. Bullshit...

 I  almost couldn't believed my eyes, then panic set in...

Ran to my husband almost in tears "DEAR DEAR!! I ATE ALL THE MEDICINE THE DOCTOR GAVE..!! HOW HOW HOW?!"

Called the doctor... but she said shouldn't affect badly, but online say until very bad... sigh.......
still... so much implications... 3 months no menses.. plus eat medication... don't know what will happen to my child.. so sad.........
just hoping for the best...

anyway I've always wanted to name my girl, "Faith". My child is conceived with Faith :)
Ya, hope it's a girl.. If boy, then let husband choose?

Decided to test the next morning... in case the kit is wrong....

second test:

I have an "unexpected pregnancy" too.
Our Honeymoon baby.

We thought it's not possible to be pregnant since my body is so werid...

but it still happened...

Anyway, if you're reading this and know of my FB, don't post anything there okay?

 I wanna keep it private at the moment, because of all the implication and it's less than 3 months...

Especially don't let my mother know, i don't want her to worry, cos anything happen, i don't think anyone will feel as sad as me or my mother..
 Not that i have no faith, but well maybe i've seen too much horror stories...

I'll be praying and hoping for good news...

2 weeks later after the kit test...

My little blueberry at that time.. should be bigger by now..
Only at 6mm, we could hear the loud heartbeat...
I grew a beating heart in me...
Mummy is looking forward to hear u again :)
Can't help to feel tears in my eyes even thinking about my baby's heartbeat..
I'm a mother?